Literary Escape of Alia

I knew what to expect Yet still, I tried Hoping for your love Instead given your loathe. With you, I feel free But now that’s not what I see Just a broken bird Wanting to be healed. From your stone’s throw  To now boulders Weigh on my shoulders Proves you're my mere holder. This secret obsession And obvious oppression  Forced me into depression Made me realize this huge confession. That despite the chokes and the screams We’d never be the same team Yet I stay hoping it would be  Knowing it was never meant to be                                                                      Written by Athalia

You're beautiful they say, There's nothing you need to change,  Don't be insecure, The list goes on. So why do I constantly feel like this, Why can't I believe the words they say? Is it because deep down I know I've always been insecure? Comparing myself, Saying I wish I had this or that, Knowing the damage I'm creating, So why? Why do I do this, Hurting myself and the ones around me, Creating all this pain and hate, Knowing it won't better me. Why? they say, love yourself Before anyone else But with all these insecurities Eating me alive. I don't know how to truly love, This curse stuck with me That came from the hurtful words of others With no cure left behind. Is the reason why I doubt myself' And worst of all, Never allows me to be truly loved.      Written by Athalia

Messing with me on purpose like you always do, Leaving me stranded like a task to do, Makes me wonder why, I'm still falling for you. After you used me, Making me think that you cared, But I guess I was just the bait, To make her the prey.   Confusing me, From your touch, To the little white lies, Constantly feeding me.   Yet despite all that, I stay by your side. Hoping that one day, You’ll be by mine. Written by Athalia