To have & to hold

Why am I hurt,

When I caused you pain?

"You love me," you claim,

But how could that be true?


How can you love me so unconditionally,

With patience like no other,

Healing a heart you never broke?


How am I to stand before you,

When I am the reason for your pain?

I shattered your heart,

In my need for craved attention.


In my thoughtless actions,

I caused distress.

From the pain of another,

I became who I despised.


A heartbreaker...

Though I can't undo the scars of yesterday,

I vow to mend the hurt in every way.

So please stay,

For my heart belongs to you.






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